If you were to ask me, “Were you ready to have a baby?” my answer would definitely be “No.” You will never be “ready” to have your first child. But, I definitely did want my baby boy and I sure was excited to meet him.
From the first day I found out I was pregnant I was ecstatic! We had not been really trying, but we weren’t preventing either and were willing to go with the flow, whether I got pregnant or not. So, when I took the pregnancy test for the first time, I was excited but also still in disbelief and took the test three more times. Yes, THREE more times! And still it was hard to believe that I, ME, was having a baby. That a tiny little human with fingers and toes was starting its’ life inside of me.
So back to the first question, was I ready to become a mom? No. But did I want to become a mom? YES. So at the same time the excitement kicked in, so did the fear. I knew I would have to take work off, but in my case I was going to become a stay at home mom. I knew my life was going to change completely and I started to worry about what it would become. Would I miss work? Would I still be able to see my friends? Would I enjoy being a mother? How will my body change? And the scariest of all, What will it be like giving birth?
A thousands questions started to pop into my head. Was I ready to sacrifice my time? And will I still have a life? All these questions I will answer as you join my journey of being a stay at home mom. Follow my blog and I hope you enjoy the read and that any mothers out there can relate to me and not feel alone. Because yes, I did go through a tough time of feeling sad and then guilty for being sad about my new life with my son and being a mother, but I am taking it one day at a time and am willing to share my life and journey with you. Stay strong all you mamas and women! We got this!